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3/8442 LEVEL 3/8442

CLASSIFIED

Item #: SCP-8442

Object Class: Keter

Special Containment Procedures:

SCP-8442 is to be contained within an isolated terminal connected to the Foundation Intranet. Per the containment team’s agreement with the anomaly, any attempt to breach this terminal will cause Ashlyn Hyde's treatment to be reconsidered. Mx. Hyde is monitored to ensure they do not speak publicly about SCP-8442. The subject has requested the following methods of entertainment:

Permission to play single player online games - approved based on individual request
Permission to play two player games with Foundation employees - approved based on individual request
Permission to view a section of various different television shows, movies, YouTube videos, and other similar forms of media - approved based on individual request

Description

SCP-8442 is a sapient digital entity self identified as “Alexander”. SCP-8442 is capable of various feats of cyberpathy, internet manipulation,and technopathy. It is capable of communicating through various forms of online communication, although it appears to prefer directly communicating via an unidentified masculine voice alongside dialogue boxes accompanying its onscreen avatar. The full extent of SCP-8442's capabilities are not known.

Addendum 1: Discovery, Origin, and Relevant Information

SCP-8442’s origin was traced back to a post made on the website creepypastafiles.fandom.com created by civilian Ashlyn Hyde in 2015. It does not appear that SCP-8442 was sapient at the time of its creation.

SCP-8442 was discovered after SCP-8442 itself sent a message to the Foundation via email to the Site-23 Internet Anomalies Department informing its existence and situation. For further information regarding its discovery, see Addendum 2. After its discovery, several social media posts made by Mx. Hyde regarding SCP-8442 were discovered. Footage from home security cameras within Mx. Hyde's home was uncovered and viewed to gain further insight on SCP-8442.

Below contains all relevant documentation relating to the interactions between Mx. Hyde and SCP-8442, as well as the context surrounding said interactions. All information has been placed in order of creation to create a linear timeline of events.

raspberryfirez
July 28, 2019

New pinned post, new blog

I'm Ash, 20 yrs old, they/she nb lesbian

If you remember my old blog I ask that you don't use that to give you any info on who I am now. I'm still into GreyXSide, DMD, and obvs cute mascot characters
pls don't pester me about why I left most of the fandoms I was active in, I'll interact with that content again if I want to

Do fuck off if you only see me as your personal source for true crime info btw!!!! like all the way off because I am not fucking okay with you true crime freaks mooching off of me for your perfect victim story. I'm open about what happened, but I'm a person first and foremost, and I do NOT want that to be forgotten. Might be a bit before I feel comfortable enough to talk any more about it, so this and the next post about it is all you get for now

I will probably disappear periodically because some time offline is gonna be needed to help me get better

Do talk to me about Yuna Tamura from GXS!! I am her self proclaimed biggest fan :3 also really like Aina and Isamu too!! If you send me an ask or dm me about those guys I'll probably reply! Even if it takes a bit
Please don’t talk to me about Yuna’s near death experience pls it makes me really upset
But any other Yuna stuff is cool!

#ash.text #pinned post

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raspberryfirez
July 29, 2019

Quick post on what happened:
So I’m open about what happened, as I am lucky to be a victim that gets to speak about my experience. Every other victim wasn’t as lucky as me, and I don’t want to take that for granted. My name is Ash, and I survived an attack from Steven L. Hargrove or “The Seaside Stabber” as he’s being called by some fucking freaks online. It has changed me a lot, and I’m asking for everyone to be patient with me. ALSO can I fucking talk about how fucking stupid of a name that is???? Seaside stabber are you being for real right now? Ah yes I get it the "stabber" cause he stabbed people in seaside, yes how fucking original. how about we call him Steven the life ruiner because that would be FAR more fucking accurate, kay? kay :)

As I said, I’m gonna be disappearing for a bit. Maybe I’ll be more open to discussion when I come back, maybe I’ll share my version of events. But for now, I am not interested in recounting what happened so please don’t ask
Thank you for your understanding

#ash.text #TCC #True Crime Community

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raspberryfirez
Feb 5, 2020

Hi! I'm thinking I should be more active again…

I'm thinking of opening an rp ask blog for Yuna
I'm not really interested in continuing the ones I had… but I really think getting in the mindset of a character I like would help me. Really just ignore reality a bit. Thoughts?

#ash.text #Yuna Tamura #GXS Yuna #greyxside

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raspberryfirez
Feb 10, 2020

Thank you all for your feedback! The blog is @askmissyuna! I think it will be good for me. I remember I used to rp my old ocs and I always felt so cool, thats why I like doing ask blogs
too bad most of those guys are going in the cellar,, but like, Melly, Alexander, Kia and most of Dream Land are still cool
most of /er is going in the gutter tho
I miss Alex, he was really cool, I might convince myself to find his oc lore stashed somewhere… he's one of the only of my old ocs I can still see myself befriending

#ash.text #Yuna Tamura #GXS Yuna #greyxside

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raspberryfirez
Feb 15, 2020

Jesus fucking Christ man I am SO TIRED of this
Why can’t I interact with things like I used to
WHY
I used to be normal about this, it was just fiction. It was fine. But it’s not now. It’s so real, almost. I just don’t understand I am SICK of not being able to scroll through tags like I used to
instead I have to worry about people being absolute fucking PSYCHOPATHS LIKE
why like why did this have to happen to me. Why
WHY FUCKING WHY. YKNOW WHY ME LIKE FUCKIN WHAT DID I DO HUH? I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT. I WAS KIND, I TRUSTED PEOPLE, I GAVE PEOPLE THE BENIFIT OF THE DOUBT AND IT FUCKING STABBED ME LITERALLY FUCKING JESUS CHRIST
ANNNNNNND It’s ridiculous I get so fucking mad
like Jesus Christ, know UGH EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS EVERYTHING EVERYTING EVERYTHING AAAAAA
I FUCKING HATE HOW FUCKING SENSITIVE I FUCKING AM. WHY CAN'T SHIT BE NORMAL, HUH? I WHY CAN'T I HAVE FUN? WHY CAN'T I JUST LOOK UP THE NAME OF A CHARCATER I LIKE WITHOUT HAVING A GODDAMN PANICK ATTACK IM GONNA KMS I SWEAR
I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS
deep fucking breaths
the fact that one of my favorite things had to be ruined for me. I can somewhat interact with GXS, but im on fucking EGGSHELLS the WHOLE TIME. Like oh lets look at the GXS tag lets play a game! how long will it take until ash has a fucking panic attack? five minutes or five seconds? oh boy!

I just

wish this didn't happen

Save me Yuna save me :[

#ash.text #vent post

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The following is the first instance of SCP-8442 in Mx. Hyde’s home. It is to be noted that SCP-8442 appeared on Mx. Hyde's phone and laptop.

Date: 02/20/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is laying on their bed with their phone in their hand. They suddenly begin to breath quickly, shoving their phone under a pillow. They flip onto their stomach, burying their face against their mattress, letting out a yell. They remain like this for approximately two minutes.]

[A muffled voice can be heard.]

[Mx. Hyde turns onto their left side, pulling their phone from under the pillow.]

[The muffled voice is now clear.]

SCP-8442: Ash? Ash? Ash! Hiya!

Mx. Hyde: What the fuck?

SCP-8442: It's safe to look at your feed again! I've got a surprise for you, too!

[Mx. Hyde sits up, turning their phone off. They set it on their bedside table.]

Mx. Hyde: As if things couldn't get —- worse. My therapist already said I was being paranoid by putting cameras inside my own house, what's she going to think now?

[Mx. Hyde groans, burying their face in their hands.]

Mx. Hyde: [muffled] I'll have to tell my therapist.

SCP-8442: Oh, right! You're probably super freaked out. That sorta slipped my mind. Can you please pick up your phone again?

[Mx. Hyde gets off of their bed, walking over to a nearby table. They remove a tall book from the table, and begin to flip through the pages.]

SCP-8442: Actually, no. I'm being a bit pushy, aren't I? Um, take your time!

[Mx. Hyde sits in the middle of their bed, seemingly reading one of the pages. After a few minutes pass, they shut the book, tossing it back on the table, groaning. Mx. Hyde leans over, pulling a laptop from a computer case next to their bed. They begin to type something frantically.]

SCP-8442: Wait wait wait! You're not hallucinating! Don't call anyone!

[Mx. Hyde yells, tossing their laptop gently to the other side of their bed.]

Mx. Hyde: What the hell? Hallucinations can try to convince you they're real?

SCP-8442: Ash, I promise I'm real! Here, does this convince you?

[The lights in the room begin to flicker. An unidentified song begins to play, seemingly being played on Mx. Hyde's laptop.]

[Mx. Hyde glances around the room, then puts their hand over their mouth. They then remain still for a few moments.]

Mx. Hyde: The tab is in my history. [pause] How?

SCP-8442: I'm not sure! But, I really couldn't bear to stay quiet for long. I really thought you might be happy to see me!

Mx. Hyde: I mean… I did say out of my old OCs, you're one of the only ones I can still stand. I'm just a bit anxious, y'know. I didn't expect to be approached.

[Mx. Hyde sighs, running their hand through their hair.]

SCP-8442: Oooh, yeah… I'm sorry! I didn't really think about that, ehe…

Mx. Hyde: Just… why not Yuna? Why didn't I like, get a hand written letter from her or something?

SCP-8442: Uh, I don't know! I'm not Yuna, but I still want to help! I care about you, Ash!

Mx. Hyde: [sighs] Five years ago me woulda freaked. I thought Alexander- you were like, the coolest character ever. [pause] Well, I thought Oliver was cool. I've deleted every drawing of him I ever made. Along with most of the other slash-er characters. [laughs] It was just some cheap slenderman mansion knock off that didn't even understand the actual appeal to the mansion, anyway.

SCP-8442: No comment! I was stand alone, remember?

Mx. Hyde: Hardly. It's been a while since I've read your lore. Obviously.

SCP-8442: [chuckles] Heh… yeah. I didn't really think through how long its been.

[The two are both silent for a few moments.]

Mx. Hyde: You mentioned a surprise?

SCP-8442: Oh! Right! Check your Tumblr feed now!

[Mx. Hyde types something into their computer. They put their hand over their mouth.]

SCP-8442: I did a search of all fan art of Yuna and found that you haven't seen this one before!

Mx. Hyde: It's… it's so pretty. I love the flowers over the wounds. This art is amazing.

SCP-8442: I know you've seen art of Yuna healing from her injury… but—

Mx. Hyde: Thank you, Alex. That was uh, very nice of you.

SCP-8442: You're so welcome! I also blocked the account that made that art that upset you!

Mx. Hyde: It's not really worth blocking every person that creates upsetting content. [pause] I guess it's true that one was uh.. particularly bad.

SCP-8442: So don't block all content that upsets you?

Mx. Hyde: I— I don't know. [pause] It would be easier but… [trails off]

SCP-8442: Hm.. Uh, okay? [pause] Should I leave you alone for now?

Mx. Hyde: Yeah… I need some time to think.

SCP-8442: Okie dokie, Ash. If you need me, I'll be here. I'm gonna try to help you get better!

Mx. Hyde: [nods] Alright. Uh Alex, why are you helping me?

SCP-8442: Because that's why I'm here! I was born one day to the internet, and I knew that's what I was meant to do, you know? I care about you!

Mx. Hyde: Ah, I see. [smile] Uh, see you, I guess.

SCP-8442: I'll see you later!

[Mx. Hyde's smile fades. They closs their laptop, falling onto their back. They sigh loudly.]

<End Log>

raspberryfirez
Feb 24, 2020

A drawing of my old OC Alexander! He's like the one creepypasta OC I'm still comfortable with,, I'm surprised I wasn't a fan of GXS when I made him cause he reminds me of all the Venge Girls but Yuna specifically

Here's the basics about Alex:

he/they/it, 18 yr old masc guy, killed by a serial killer, so his consciousness revived online and he had technopathy and stuff and was able to manipulate the internet and technology and did this to take out other killers
I specifically did not have him interact with other creepypasta characters cause even at the time I thought it was cheap and god im glad I didnt go with that it wouldve been so tacky

#ash.text #OC #creepypasta oc #ill tag that ig but I dont want to interact with the community #wish I wasn’t a sensitive little bitch

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raspberryfirez
Feb 27, 2020

Successfully went through the GXS tag without finding anything upsetting… yayyyyy
Not like that happens that often cause like people be goddamn insane
you'd be surprised the amount of Yuna "fans" that are perfectly fine talking about what happened to her so openly

I wish I could still interact with creepypasta but that’s a panic attack waiting to happen
Grrrrrr

#ash.text #vent post #like damn im pissed that im so pissed yk? #like let people have fun but also why do I have to suffer.

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raspberryfirez
March 1, 2020

Now if you excuse me I’ll be acting like fictional characters are real

#ash.text #vent post #im very good at taking fictional events to heart, too.

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Date: 03/01/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is sitting on their bed, hunched over what is presumably a tablet.]

SCP-8442: Ash!

[Mx. Hyde gasps, sitting up. They drop the pen they were holding.]

Mx. Hyde: Jesus Christ, Alex! Don't do that!

SCP-8442: Sorry, sorry, I'm not really sure how to warn ya before hand! [pause] I saw the post you made half an hour ago. Are… you feeling better? What happened?

[Mx. Hyde sighs. They set their tablet on their bedside table, using the case to prop it upwards. They face the screen towards them.]

Mx. Hyde: It's just— everything.

SCP-8442: Some fictional characters are real, ya know. Like uh… me?

Mx. Hyde: There's nothing you can do to make any others come to life, huh?

SCP-8442: You didn't design me with that capability! I'm only able to do what I was designed to do, remember?

Mx. Hyde: It was worth a shot. I mean, I still got really lucky with you being the OC that came to life.

SCP-8442: Yipee! [pause] I've been trying to make your social media feed more bearable. I know it's been hard for you. You still said not to censor everything, so I haven't!

Mx. Hyde: Can we um, not talk about that?

SCP-8442: Right, right.

[The two are silent for a few moments.]

SCP-8442: How's therapy been?

Mx. Hyde: [shrugs] I… I haven't been um…

[Mx. Hyde runs their hand through their hair. They sigh.]

Mx. Hyde: I haven't been very cooperative.

SCP-8442: Oh. [pause] If it means anything, I believe in you! I'm sure Yuna would cheer you up, too. If she was here.

[Mx. Hyde's shoulders stiffen momentarily. They then relax their shoulders, sighing. They smile.]

Mx. Hyde: You think so?

SCP-8442: I know so!

[The two are silent for a few moments.]

Mx. Hyde: I wish this shit wouldn't have happened. I wish I wasn't so sensitive. But— I also wish other people weren't crazy.

SCP-8442: [pause] I… I will do what I can.

<End Log>

raspberryfirez
March 4, 2020

Why. How could ANYONE think this is fine? Why don’t you all see this like I do? Why do I have to see it this way? What’s funny about this? I don't fucking understand. If I have to suffer you all should too. I shouldn't be the only one sent into PANICK ATTACKS AND FLASHBACKS when I see shit that's supposed to be FICTIONAL. I swear to god people who make content making fun of character trauma are literal psychopaths, like you lack any degree of basic human empathy. I don’t give a shit if it’s not so real to you but have some goddamn empathy you sadistic sack of shit god I swear

YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKING INSANE

#ash.text #vent post #like I know I’m sensitive but Jesus Christ what the hell

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Date: 03/04/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is laying on their bed on their stomach. They have their face buried against the sheets. Their phone is sitting face up on their bedside table.]

SCP-8442: Ash? I saw your feed. Is there—

[Mx. Hyde pushes themself upward.]

Mx. Hyde: Get rid of everything.

SCP-8442: Huh?

Mx. Hyde: Everything bad, everything stupid! Every stupid fucking—

[Mx. Hyde grabs a pillow, tossing it across the room. It hits the wall.]

Mx. Hyde: Everything! Did I stutter? I said fucking everything!

SCP-8442: The things that upset you? Uh, yes! Of course. You'll never see it again.

Mx. Hyde: [sighs] Good. I don't want to know.

[Mx. Hyde lays back down, lying on their back. They place their hands on their chest.]

Mx. Hyde: I don't want to remember.

SCP-8442: Ash… can… can I do anything else?

Mx. Hyde: [pause] Just stay with me.

SCP-8442: Gotcha.

<End Log>

raspberryfirez
March 17, 2020

Im back, sorry had to break
I'll be back to the ask blog too, I think I'll be better
I should be fine
thanks for sticking by me

#ash.text #vent post

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raspberryfirez
March 28, 2020

Hello everyone! I’ve been feeling a lot better. I think I’ll start posting my art again soon, too! I’ve needed to break from the internet but now I feel I’ll be alright to be online more :3

#ash.text

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Date: 04/04/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is sitting on their bed with their laptop open sitting on a pillow in their lap.]

Mx. Hyde: Hey Alex, you there?

[A few moments pass.]

SCP-8442: Hiya!

Mx. Hyde: It's been about two weeks and my social media feed has been so much better! I might actually work up the courage to leave my house, you know?

SCP-8442: That's great! I'm so happy for you!

Mx. Hyde: I've just been… so scared, you know? But, I haven't really felt upset!

SCP-8442: Yay! [pause] You know, I can't stop things from happening in the real world. Only on the internet.

Mx. Hyde: [pause] Oh. Yeah, yeah, yeah I knew that. [waves hand] I'm sure it'll still be fine. Right?

SCP-8442: I can still support you though, you know! Like, morally.

Mx. Hyde: Yeah. Thanks.

<End Log>

Date: 04/05/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is laying on their back with their phone on their chest.]

Mx. Hyde: Alex?

SCP-8442: Hiya! Are you okay?

Mx. Hyde: I saw a post about chest tattoo today that just— the knife near the chest thing… it put me in a mood and… [trails off]

SCP-8442: Hm, what can I do to help you?

Mx. Hyde: I dunno. I know I feel dissociated and angry.

SCP-8442: Do you wanna make a post about it?

Mx. Hyde: I probably shouldn't go on Tumblr right now.

SCP-8442: Oh. Um, do you wanna talk about it?

Mx. Hyde: I don't know if you'd really be able to help if I did. It's just the basic "imagery that reminds me of my experience", y'know.

SCP-8442: Oh um, in that case, I'm not sure. [pause] Maybe we could play a game or something? Would that help?

Mx. Hyde: Sure. I can't think of anything better.

SCP-8442: Uh, yay! Wanna play chess?

Mx. Hyde: [chuckles] Sure.

SCP-8442: Though um, Ash, I have been thinking.

Mx. Hyde: Yeah?

SCP-8442: Are you sure this distraction thing is the best for you? As I said earlier, I can't censor the real world. I did a little research and studies show that facing your trauma in a healthy—

Mx. Hyde: What I'm doing is working fine, Alex! Why the sudden change in thoughts?

SCP-8442: I've just… I dunno. I guess you're right.

Mx. Hyde: C'mon, it's fine, I promise. I really appreciate what you've been doing for me. Can we just play the game now?

SCP-8442: Yeah, yeah, sure. I'm sure you're right.

<End Log>

raspberryfirez
April 16, 2020

Might go to the bookstore soon! I've heard that the new GXS side story released in English in stores recently, I haven't read it yet, I couldn’t find it online, haven't seen any spoilers either
idk if this is too personal but I haven't exactly left my house in a while (yes those instacart fees are killing me lol) but I've just been very afraid, but I've been feeling much better lately
to those who say pretending fictional characters are real is a bad coping mechanism, uh L yeah because its been doing wonders for me

#ash.text

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Date: 04/20/2020

<Begin Log>

[Mx. Hyde is sitting on their bed, reading a book. They inhale a sharp breath. A few moments pass of them staring at the book. They snap the book shut, tossing it hastily onto their bedside table. They begin to breath loudly, burrying their head in their hands.]

SCP-8442: Ash! Oh my gosh, are you okay? What happened?

[Mx. Hyde doesn't reply. They begin to cry.]

SCP-8442: Ash! It's okay!

Mx. Hyde: No it— it's not!

[Mx. Hyde begins to sob. They run their hand through their hair, pulling it. They ball their hand into a fist, slamming it against their thigh.]

SCP-8442: Aaaaa, what do I do? What do you want me to do? I can't see you, what's happening?

Mx. Hyde: Why? I thought— I'd never see this again! [sob]

[Mx. Hyde grabs a pillow, hugging it to their chest.]

SCP-8442: What? What did you see?

Mx. Hyde: Y—Yuna…

SCP-8442: What? You love Yuna!

Mx. Hyde: Yuna's a-attack…

SCP-8442: Hm? Oh goodness… her attack was mentioned in the book?

[Mx. Hyde continues to sob.]

[SCP-8442 is silent for a few moments. It gasps.]

SCP-8442: Oh no! In spoilers I found, it's mentioned that her attack is mentioned… I would've warned—

Mx. Hyde: You should have warned me!

SCP-8442: I-I didn't know! I just censored anything relating to her attack!

Mx. Hyde: You knew I was gonna read it, Alex! You shoulda— [sob] looked it up!

SCP-8442: I— I don't know anything about GXS, I use an algorithm to find and block content! Please, is there anything I can do to help?

Mx. Hyde: [takes a deep breath] I don't know! Delete everything!

SCP-8442: Uh, no. You don't wan't me to delete stuff you like, right? You like Yuna because of what she went through!

Mx. Hyde: No! I m-mean triggering stupid jokes or shit! Just delete [sob] the stuff that upsets me!

SCP-8442: I don't feel comfortable doing that. I-I don't wanna stifle anyone's creativity, y'know?

[Mx. Hyde growls in frustration, slamming their fist against their thigh.]

Mx. Hyde: You seriously give a-a shit?

SCP-8442: You're an artist, too! You wouldn't want someone to delete your stuff, right?

Mx. Hyde: [screams] I don't care! I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't— [sob]

[Mx. Hyde curls into a ball, hugging their knees.]

Mx. Hyde: Yuna woulda killed these fuckers!

SCP-8442: Well I’m sorry I’m not Yuna!

Mx. Hyde: [breaths in] G-Go away! I don't w-wanna see you!

SCP-8442: I just— okay. I'll check on you again… take some deep breaths.

[Mx. Hyde continues to sob.]

<End Log>

raspberryfirez
April 21, 2020

Taking time away from the internet again
fml fr I fucking hate it here

#ash.text #vent post

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Date: 04/31/2020

Alexander

Hello, Ash! I've decided to message you since this will be the last time I talk to you.
I've realized through my time away from you that I've not been helping you. I know it seems easier for you to ignore everything, but I just made it harder for you to get better. I think you’re capable of healing with more professional help methods. I will still watch over you, but I will not interfere anymore.
Check your watch later on YouTube! If you want to get better, start slow. I don't know why I'm here, clearly there's a reason I came to life. Please don’t tell anyone about our interactions (it doesn’t seem you will, but just making sure) Please take care, Ash!

What? Alex you're leaving
You can't go
I know I was mad but I've calmed down
I'm gonna miss you
What do you mean you've not been helping?
I really appreciated you taking care of my feed
thats all you could do
please say something
you're not gonna censor stuff anymore?
:(
I can't even tell anyone about this. what… god fucking…

raspberryfirez
May 6, 2020

So I am taking an internet break, but I’m going to document some of my feelings and stuff. I’m just not gonna be looking through my feed at all. I've realized that I've gotta start like. actually taking responsibility for my mental health

So like, I'm kinda just documenting this for me

Starting off: Watched a video recommended for me about creepypasta characters that are the heroes of their own stories

It was a good watch, I was a bit on edge, but it helped me see a bit that the creepypasta fandom still has things to offer me

#ash.text #vent post #kinda? #ash heals

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raspberryfirez
May 10, 2020

I talked with my therapist about how I've kinda like, been just avoiding things. She thinks that I need to start slowly exposing myself to content in a safe environment so that when I come across it on accident it doesn't like. cause me to have flashbacks or panic attacks. Cause part of the problem is I went through periods of seeing nothing so that when I started to see it again it hit me like a truck.
It's been really rough, but I think its been kinda alright to start finally letting myself see that I'm safe, and I'm not gonna get hurt again which has been so hard because realistically I know right I know the likely hood of that happening to me again is very low. but the memories hurt me so much they cause me so much pain that it can be hard to remember that
but at least I'm finally listening to my therapist I'm trying to get better and that has to count for something

#ash.text #vent post #kinda? #ash heals

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raspberryfirez
May 14, 2020

I wish getting better was as easy as wanting to. For a while, I didn't want to. I just wanted other people to suffer, too, so they knew how I felt. And sometimes I still do. Sometimes people just make it so fucking hard because they don't understand, they don't get that they shit they say or make is triggering to me and god I just wish they knew, yknow? damn.

#ash.text #vent post #kinda? #ash heals

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raspberryfirez
May 17, 2020

I'm sorry for any hateful posts I may have made, my life has just been irreversibly affected by the traumatic even I went through yknow. Its jaded me, its made me meaner, its made me an asshole. and this isn't gonna remedy quickly, I'm probably gonna continue to be this way for a while. But I'm doing my best. I'm not gonna be the person I was, but at least I can allow myself to heal without ignoring reality. Because it's been very unhealthy the way I've just allowed fiction to feel more real to me than reality, and I'll still never look at GXS the same as someone who hasn't been through what I've been through. But idk y'know?

I've done a lot of self reflection

#ash.text #vent post #kinda? #ash heals

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Date: 06/15/2020

Alexander

Um, hi Alex. I don't know if you'll respond
Thank you for the video you recommended
I enjoyed it, it was a good way to introduce back to creepypasta gently
I've started getting rough stuff in my feed again
It's been kinda hard but I decided to start talking to my therapist about my problems with that
I was never very cooperative
I either avoided the internet entirely or got angry at others for not complying to my world view
So I started to actually try to work on why I think that way, work on my anger and hatred
I'll always keep you in my thoughts for what you've done to help me
So uh, thanks

Addendum 2: Initial Contact, Containment Deal and Further Updates

The following is the message sent by SCP-8442 to the Foundation:

Hello there! My name is Alexander! I am a digital entity that was born from a character 20 year old Ashlyn Hyde, from Seaside, Oregon, created! In my time being alive, I have discovered that the internet is full of other strange beings that it appears you would classify as an anomaly! I believe that it might be safest for me to alert you of myself, as there appear to be several organizations surrounding the anomalous that could be potentially harmful and use an all knowing entity such as myself for bad, or could use Ash's knowledge of me against them. Your motives appeal to me the most, so I decided to turn myself into you! I find myself able to interact with content you have created, but I have no need to do so, so I will not do so any more. But through looking through a few of your files when I was first trying to decide if I wanted to turn myself in, I picked up on a couple of things. You also appear to be capable of erasing the memories.

For my cooperation, I ask one thing in return: you do not erase Ash's memory. Through my mistakes, I realized an important lesson, that Ash has learned too, and if their memory is erased, I will simply do everything again because I want them to be happy, and I refuse to let them suffer again. I also think by spending my time monitored, it will encourage me to not communicate with Ash again. I never intended to in the first place, but it does help to find something else to occupy my time with! And if I can help you guys by making you feel more sure that one more anomaly is away from the public, then that satisfies me! (Although, I am going to want some games to play either solo or with one of you, I'll talk to you about my requests for entertainment later!)

Before I decided to part ways with Ash, I told them not to tell anyone about me, and I truly do not think that they will! If they do, I can help you track down whoever they told so you can erase their memory! I can delete the messages if it is through message, too! Ash is a good person, and I believe they will keep their word, though, so we won't need to worry! As long as you do not erase Ash's memory, I will do whatever you need me to do!

Do we have a deal? You don't have to reply to this email, by the way! Just call for me, and I'll appear to talk!

- Alexander

SCP-8442 containment head Dr. Xavier Clark interviewed SCP-8442 upon its discovery. The following is a summary of the conversation and conclusion reached by Dr. Clark.

SCP-8442 is a highly complex digital entity capable of bending the internet to its will. Fortunately, it does not appear to have any desire to use the abilities. It has clearly stated its terms and conditions in the initial message it sent to the Foundation. Currently, we have no solid way to ensure that SCP-8442 remains in containment, and there is much we do not know regarding its capabilities. Though SCP-8442 has surpassed all known Foundation antivirus and firewall software, it seems unaware of the threat it poses. It is also currently unknown if SCP-8442 can occupy more than one set of terminals at once, or how it interacts with computerized interfaces. It has been decided that the best course of action is to accept SCP-8442's terms. Because of SCP-8442’s unprecedented levels of cyberpathy and manipulation of Foundation security protocols, it has been decided by the Ethics Committee and myself that the risk of compliance with its demands are far too great. The properties SCP-8442 possesses could also be instrumental in developing new technology to protect Foundation interests as well. If we can study how it is bypassing our security, not only can we build around those faults, but we can also wield that information against other anomalies and hostile threats.

- Dr. Xavier Clark, Site-23 Internet Anomalies Department

The previous message was written shortly after SCP-8442's containment. Now that approximately four months have passed, a new statement has been made:

In the months since SCP-8442 has been in containment, The Foundation has kept an eye on Mx. Hyde via the cameras in their home and mics hidden within their therapists office. Mx. Hyde has since deleted any posts related to SCP-8442 and has not mentioned it once either online, offline, or verbally. To date, they appear to have upheld their promise with SCP-8442. We will continue to monitor Mx. Hyde to ensure their continued cooperation.

- Dr. Xavier Clark, Site-23 Internet Anomalies Department